I know I promised someone to take a lot of pictures, but honestly… We look like two zombies and we’ve not been in the picture-taking mood. We don’t do that much either, it’s just us time and I want to enjoy it as much as I can because I’ll have to be another 1½ months without him before he can finally stay (hopefully) a month or two. But during the summer there should come some pictures since we’re going to Copenhagen! Excite!
We’ve basically been attached to the hips since he ran into my arms at the airport. He came 10 minutes earlier than expected, which was wonderful. It’s nice to feel this happy, it’s nice to forget all the shit and just embrace the comfort. I really love him, more than anything.
And I’m so nervous I think I’ll be sick. I’m so nervous my eyes can’t focus sometimes. I haven’t felt like this since we were going to meet for the first time in 2011. So much has happened since August last year. So much shit and fear and anger. And I have this horrible feeling he’ll see me and not love me, even though he’s never done anything to make me feel that way. I’m just really nervous. But it’ll be okay, he’ll hug me, kiss me and we’ll be fine. I just hate this waiting.
There’s a lot of people having to go through security so that’ll take a bit but he’s at Stansted! Now to just wait for the flight at 13:40 (UK time) and I’ll leave for the airport around 15:30 I think! Exciteeeeeed!!
I’ve just finished cleansing and beautifying my face a bit. When my mum leaves for work, the rest will be dealt with! I’m so excited, I love this pampering day. It makes it feel so much more real. These days leading up always feel so strange, surreal in a way. But tomorrow is the day. By this time tomorrow Sean will be at Stansted airport and he’ll be waiting for his flight and chatting to me on his phone. I’m so excited, you have no idea.
So… I had to put down my dog today, and it’s one of the worst things I’ve had to deal with - and I’ve dealt with a lot of shit. And it just makes these last 3 days seem like 3 years. I need Sean here, I need to be in his arms. 3 days.
This time in a week, I’ll finally be able to sleep with the girl of my dreams once more! It’s so exciting, we’ve already made a packing list. It’s not long, because I’m only taking hand luggage, but it’s done!